Still sad.. but its bitter sweet.  This was to be a song.
maybe I just need to find some solace in another's arms..
or i might be weak and go back for more punishment.
love is such a sweet pain.
Taking volunteers.

Aint no sunshine.   - Feb 19 2007
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aint no sunshine when she's gone.
aint no blue sky without those eyes
aint no singing of my song
when I walked away , I think I died

I just ponder every moment
and I dream on her all night
without the daily beat
I think this night wont let me sleep

love is what I got,
its pain is very sweet
I wonder if ill break it
this addiction that I seek

I seeked them out since I was weak
I craved those eyes since I could sleep
in my dreams I had them a thousand times
but in my life, they I cannot keep

so I walk away
so I save my pain
so I keep alive what freedoms I can save

so I walk away
so I try to sleep
so I I can feel this heart beat another day

but is been so long
since I seen her face.
since I heard her laugh and say my name
I could have been
but I should have been
but loves pain is oh so sweet

aint no sunshine when she's gone
aint no rivers without my tears
aint no blue sky's without those eyes
aint to proud to stop my feet.

Felt a bit rushed, but I'm trying to find a way to make my videos a bit more appealing visually .  I know I'm hot, but  cant let  you females  get  so excited without reprieve :)

A Weavils Choice

What wickedness lurks inside
sweet succulent evil
with every breath a choice denied
and our heart shrinks to a weavil

is choice the greatest good
is choice larger than that
out path is set in wood
we can shape it and wear it like a hat

is choice the greatest bad
endless like the deep blue sea
if it is its kind of sad
but life's a ship we can sail it, you and me

when truly your heat speaks
a choice is ever clear
sometimes the love you seek
is something very near

never when you give a damn
would you ever see it
not clearly, motionless, just as gentle as a lamb
it slaps you in the face, twit
until you stop looking, just belive and feel it

Catchy title, merged from the titles of the 4 poems.  Don't you think ?
 Click the picture for the reading.

Anxiously awaiting your feedback .
Bastol ----,--'---<@

Silent Stalker

Between fractured frames she watches
glancing slyly at her prey
She wants to announce her mission
Pounce between the billiards fray

He visits his beer, Dutifully unaware
The beads of condensation rolling into wet rings.
The table empty but for the water stains
Casually conversing with his friends

Focused on the perfect shot, she taunts him
He does not notice her stare
Transfixed upon his every breath
he orders another beer

The words he speaks are empty
She will fill them with her wares
she stops to say hello, And envisions his embrace
He hugs her as a friend , unaware of her lace.

She knows his every thought and twitch
she feels her own connection
still waiting she will be
to vye for his attention.

One day he will notice,
Stand up and pay attention
The thing she does not realize
is the cuffs are for her detention

Once past the gravel

Lazily crunching forward
through the autumn leaves
drifting down the message
Just telling ' let it be'

one foot forward and then the next
my shoes they carry me
I left behind the worries
I left behind the pleas

Some where ahead it beckons me

entices me to travel
it says the reward is everything
once past the gravel

forest opens up to reeds
water for miles and
the canoe waits impatiently
pole and tackle I clime aboard

Paddle softly just offshore
a ridge under here, I know there is more
I plunk the line and sit back
true music sings to me as I set my hook

Steady reeling, concentration
pull and strain as the rod bends
scooping with the net
today I have truly earned my means.

once past the gravel .

The game and we

when the sun goes down
you and I together can sing
magical melodies and harmonies
with beauty and light shower we

Sparkling dewdrops of passion
drip slowly down as we dance
endless rhythms of love
with little more than air around us

Breathing heavily together
panting like puppies playing in the heat
tongues dancing like ribbons
touching in the breeze

we lay aside another hour
and enjoy the musky scent
and we take it slowly
the game and we

when the sun goes down
you and I together can sing
magical melodies and harmonies
with beauty and light shower we

Smiles

Smile smolders beauty
like lava and the heat wisps
with echoed tears behind the eyes
flickering sunsets on eh horizon

soulful spirits search the sky
like butterflies chasing fireflies
magnetic attractions to the flame
engulf those that feel the pain

smirks signal mischief
hidden playfully behind brown eyes
like kittens playing tag
between bushes or tickled feet

generous grins echo on velvet lips
like seductive ear whisperings on a romantic evening
touching softly the tell tales
tales of taboo nights and satin sheets

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Thanks again for the feedback
Bastol.

I am seriously considering reading this at the open mike tonight.  Assuming two things,  1. I am awake enough to drive there safely, and 2. That i can breathe enough to speak coherently for them to let me.
 
Meeting those shouldn’t be all that hard, but something sounds a bit off with this poem, maybe you can help me refine it a little.  ?
 
(p.s. Thanks for all the wonderful well wishes, sprinkling of dreams, and hugs and kisses!  my new year is off to a great start and this is my year!  The same Chinese New Year that I was born under and this year will keeps that positive vibe flowing)
 
-----
Of Heroes
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Inside, the desperate hearts' murmur
Beats innocence's sweet caress.
Breathing purity of a fervor
Whose strength is limitless.
Tells tales of heroes and distress
 
it begins each night renewed
When passed is a lonely glance
Not from a friend but from someone new
And a word exchange begins the dance
The cycle complete, brought forth the hero but only for the second hand’s caress

Forward in time hearts collide in chase
And break apart in terror
Scared of the cycles cold embrace
Thinking “will this be forever?”
Togetherness is the loneliest quest filled with heroes and distress

Check that, its on the floor
Check that, You want it more
check that, slam the door
check that , control is yours.

you got another ryme and reason
you got another time and season
dont matter cause your all she wanted
dont matter cause you know you got it now

Shakin that thing and she knows you saw.
dont pay ehr no mind cause you you know that draw
istead you got it bad in side you
your mind is goin all around and you
move up on the dance floor
you shakit like you got some thing to do
an she wonders why you don't pursue.
you know you got it
and she wants it
you know that if you chase her
she'l dance up on the next guy with out you

check that , its on the floor
check that , you you got the door
check that , shes young and you know it too
check that , slam the door
check that , control is yours.

you got another rhyme and reason
born in another time and season
dont matter cause your all she wanted
dont matter cause you know you got it now
dont matter cause shes followin you home

check that, you got the door
check that, you she wants it more
check that you got the floor
check that the gal is yours
check that shorty begs for more.

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okay inspiration hit me listening to smack that, but  hey, reminded me of a little while ago .... :) and an interesting but private story.

to cut lose a part of your history is always done in haste and frustration . sometimes its easier to remain, and other times its just for the best. but the best for you is not always the best for  someone else, can you be so selfless and give your all to those around you that you care about and be patient enough to wait for the same to come to you ? its good karma, but after so many years of patience it's wearing thin. and about to change you into something you despise with almost every breath . and that's no guarantee that what your losing is not already gone. you know that your not perfect, you know what you want form life, and that person that haunts your every sleepless night. you try each time to convince yourself that its this one, or the next one. and then you stop trying and something comes along naturally , it fits, and its beautifully a fit that the gods must have gifted. you are so casual that life doesn't seem to get better, you don't want to change a thing. but something happens. as it usually does it happens in a way that was not even true. a trust is broken, releasing a bond that you vowed never to break . can you do it, reneg your giving when you know its the right thing to do , can you release that part of you that you created in your history and not guarantee the next step happens the way you want it to..

its done now. you have to let it be. and go to bed. let the dreams wash over you like the warmth of an ocean wave on a hot tropical sea. imagine the eyes again, and draw strength from that vision and pray. pray that your inner strength holds out and the truth prevails. you can show the world what true love based on giving is. or at least that one other person who allows you to be yourself and expects nothing, but accepts your purity at full strength, honestly and sincerely.

sparks flew silently and under deflection of caution and hope. they were unexpected and began to be the true uncontrolled fire that can happen. always a scary thing, understandable because that's something people don't experience every day. that why when it happens your first instinct is to run, right after you had a taste of embrace. it scares the shit out of you and you run you feel its always not the right time, and your never prepared to feel that kind of fire. afraid it will upset your life and change your every desire and goal for your plans. unless.

unless your the kind that embraces that fire always, allows it to live, knowing form experience  and from being burned by false fires, that the false ones always burn out, and the true ones have a different feel. something natural and animal, something that makes you soft like jello and warm like a melted marshmallow. I am the kind that embraces the fire, and have stopped choosing companions based on the surface colors showing and the pretty depth in the quirks of he flame, but more based on the emotional feel of the heat, the inner glow that only empathy can allow you to see. it makes your lists of approved short, and sometimes that's even shortened by how in touch they are with those feelings.. some take control and use that flame like a blowtorch, but that only burns those they touch. some are so afraid of it they bottle it up inside until it hurts. and when it releases its like an atomic explosion. but those fires always subside, because they only use a part of the source. and wont set it free. afraid if they do that they will be insane or never be able to be themselves that the world has defined for them .

break the mold. release your inhibitions and follow your instincts. let that fire free and feel the flame surround you and embrace you without pain and protect you with the intensity of the sun . take a chance on something that really isn't a chance. and invite the sublime into your world. even if you feel it a little while your life will change forever. I can make that happen, my life spent free allowing that fire to burn and learning that the fuel driving it is endless and as powerful as light. and that ultimately with truth and the walls removed you will find that 2 fires burning in unison such that I describes and feel might show you that it will stay with it forever, no matter the cost to the placated world around them as a fire only wants to burn as brightly as it can and share that experience with something that can intensify that.

you can do anything you want to do by choice. and you can chose to experience , instead of exist. live at all levels at once, instead of the one society dictates for you .

 What did you learn from this ? i would love to hear what you walked away with.. thats my challenge to you .  dont be shy..

Once a queen steps into your throes.
only life will stand still , it knows
Justified in its reaction
it knows no excuses and hence, no retraction

Effortlessly she parts the sea
of people around her, she says ' look at me'
'i am the center of attention'
'So throw down and vow your repention'

atop her pedastle does she sit
put there by confidence, bit by bit
modestly she does posess
beauty boundless wrapped in dress.

smiles punctuated by her lips
a walk accentuated by her hips
depth perceived by caramel eyes
and heaven created both those thighs.

What would you give to worship her ?
what could you tribute in soul kind sir ?
to pay respect and chance her glance
for every moment you are entranced.

daylight  flows on and keeps it real
every breath becomes a big deal
for one day soon you cannot hide
that as king you wish to ride.

 ( IF I LAY HERE .....IF I JUST LAY HERE.... AND JUST FORGET THE WORLD)

' okay 'D'  you asked for it.. here you go, You know I can't back down a challenge after i have had a few pints. '

Hidden beneath liquid white
is depth like an ocean
in a tropical night

sensuous pools deep and new
within the perfect sphere
rippled in true  
they have nothing to fear

Speaking of confidence
beauty unbound
heaven can wait
in these i have drowned

their sins are just naughty
but its a river so haughty
it will keep me awake
too many pleasures to partake

help my heart please
they are emphatic with tease
with every glance
my mind is entranced

distract me with laughter
or just another lager
but hide me from sin
or prick me with a pin
cause another glance
might just do me in

take my hand
don't be afraid
when we are together
we may have it made

We sing and we dance
Cuddle and romance
but here we are together
when lightning strikes
it will be forever

inside ourselves we tantalize
dream of romance and Fantasize
remove ourselves from what lies we made
criticize each others fate.

When our illusions fade
we might have it made
if we only can make that trade
illusions aren't forever babe.

We sing and we dance
Cuddle and romance
but here we are together
when lightning strikes
it will be forever

Within these walls we built in life
our hearts just cannot survive
yet we build them and reinforce the lies

walking in circles
forever lost in our lives
without direction
without drive

Thanks 'D' for convincing me to stay and have another beer.  and challenging out a couple more poems.  I hope you enjoyed yours.  And I'm back in the writing mode!